You know what I have noticed recently? I have started to self-censor. Here, on my own blog.
I go through the scheduled posts and delete those of them that I know some people will find objectionable. I avoid writing on certain topics because I know that reader A will be upset, reader B will write an angry email, reader C will leave a comment saying “Enough already on this topic”, etc. I edit the posts before publishing them, softening the language and removing anything that might cause people to start having a fit right here on the blog.
As a result, I have started to feel tongue-tied and boring.
The blog has started to turn into a community which, by definition, requires that its members castrate themselves, lop off parts of themselves in order to fit in. I have to say, the community is kind of pleasant to have. But if I have to self-censor and silence myself in return, then fuck that shit. The entire point of having a blog was to say whatever I wanted to say. And now I don’t do that for fear of sounding too harsh and hurting somebody’s sensibilities. It also feels easier to self-censor than to face yet another round of emails telling me how I would attract more allies by being less aggressive or comments saying “I really loved your blog but now you have offended my sacred cow and I’m traumatized.”
This is a road to nowhere, people. There are more than enough blogs in existence whose authors publish inane, super-PC, supremely boring swill. Why should I join their ranks?
So I have decided to stop doing this. The preceding post is my first step in the direction away from self-censorship.
I will say what I want and express myself in the manner that suits my fancy.
Please understand that I have no obligation to be a mirror of your beliefs and opinions. All I can do here is express what I think. And if you find the idea that there is somebody in the world who disagrees with you about something too traumatizing, nobody forces you to stick around.