For the sake of educating the masses, I will share this painful and deeply personal story.
As you all know, my husband N. is a wonderful person who makes me very happy. He is kind, quiet, and normally very happy.
And then last Tuesday he suddenly changed. He became listless, he slept all the time, refused to talk, and looked extremely angry yet incapable of explaining what was happening. Then he started having fits of rage and experienced suicidal thoughts. I had no idea what was going on. Obviously, I was distraught because he didn’t even look like the person I knew and loved.
I tried talking to him but he couldn’t explain what was the matter beyond saying that nobody cared about him and everything was useless.
Finally, after trying to get it out of him for days, I discovered what happened.
N. had a tooth-ache. His dentist’s clinic is right around the corner. Besides, N. has a fantastic dental insurance. But he didn’t go to see the dentist because he thought his tooth-ache was not serious enough to bother the dentist and distract him from more serious pursuits than treating patients. (Yes, N. is like that. He doesn’t like to bother people needlessly.)
So instead of going to the dentist and getting his tooth-ache dealt with by a professional, N. decided to take care of it on his own. He disinterred a bottle of Vicodin and started popping pills. This was my Vicodin that had been prescribed to me but that I never took because I’m scared of it. I had asked N. to dispose of it but he forgot. Now he found this Vicodin and started taking it.
We are both very anti-drug and, as a result, our bodies are not used to any medication. Of course, after N. started gulping down these Vicodin pills, he overdosed on them.
If a few pills over the course of several days can do this to a person, I don’t even want to imagine the destruction of personality this garbage can inflict if taken over longer periods of time.
I took half a Vicodin pill once (it was actually for a tooth-ache, as well) and I never want to feel the way I felt on this medication. Just half a pill made me feel sociopathic. I didn’t experience any pain after I took it but I didn’t have any other feelings either. I knew that I could say and do anything to people and have no compassion for them. Thank God, I only took half a pill, so I was lucid enough to realize that I needed to stay away from other human beings until the effects wore off.
Don’t take this shit, people.
P.S. If you want to leave a comment telling me how Vicodin is great, please go and reread the first sentence of this post and then consider how stupid such a comment would be in this context.