Trump’s Taxes

Tomorrow, instead of going to my favorite café for breakfast, I’ll go to some sad drive-through. The café is closed, so I have to eat alone in my office.

Then I’ll drive to a mostly empty campus. I’ll have to waste a buttload of time trying to return a book that I borrowed from another college back in February. They haven’t reopened and are charging fines while making it impossible to return anything.

I’ll sweat through two lectures under a face shield and strain my hearing to decipher what students are saying under their masks.

In my office, I will scroll through many emails from the administration and pretend not to see political slogans that I find insulting in the signatures. I’ll miss our discussion board that was shut down because it “doesn’t serve the needs of social justice.” I’ll delete a bunch of messages urging me to attend indoctrination sessions where I will be told that my existence is evil.

Instead of talking to my parents in person because they are normally here this time of year, I’ll call on the phone. Instead of taking my kid to the dance lesson, the kids’ gym or the museum, I’ll take her home. At home, I’ll explain to my husband why we can’t put up a political sign without fearing for our safety.

All day long, I’ll silence, censor and edit myself. I’ll pretend not to hear questions, not to notice statements, not to have opinions, and not to have a voice. I’m pretty much at a limit of how much literal and metaphoric muzzling I can take, and it’s only a little over a month before we collectively decide whether we enthusiastically embrace a lot more muzzling.

21 thoughts on “Trump’s Taxes”

  1. “All day long, I’ll silence, censor and edit myself”

    Little did you realize back in 1998(?) that instead of emigrating away from the Soviet mentality you so despised you were ultimately just outrunning it for a while….

    That maybe sounds harsher than I intended, but I have similar thoughts – there are parts of American reality that I hate and despise and I’m not…. happy seeing them enthusiastically accepted in Europe…


  2. Ah, Clarissa, do I hear you saying that the bombshell NYTimes news about “TRUMP’S TAXES!” (all that loot he didn’t pay) threatens you mainly as a stigmata that Trump haters can apply to you as an example of how evil you are for daring to support Trump’s moderately conservative Republican political agenda and policies, against the madness of the Biden-AOC-Beto-Warren Green New Deal that will end fracking forever, while mangling the economy, destroying your suburbs, and looking the other way while the cities burn down in anarchy? So expressing your honest political opinions could cause you and your family considerable grief??

    Fortunately, I have the luxury of being immune to the howl of the mob. I live alone, I’m long retired, I’m independently wealthy, and I require the political agreement of NO ONE to believe whatever I goddamn want. So I can say out loud:

    I don’t CARE about Trump’s taxes — or his character — or even if he initially fucked up the coronavirus mess (along with Gov. Cuomo and everybody else who got it wrong). I’m interested in political policy actions going forward, and that means supporting reopening the economy, low taxes, reduced regulations, conservative justices, enforcing law and order vigorously, avoiding senseless foreign wars, not allowing PC-madness to force me to call men with beards “she” or “they” and insist that they be allowed in women’s prisons, etc.

    A politician’s actions speak louder than his tweets or stupid words or his past business deals (not that Biden, with his obvious shielding of his son Hunter’s behavior is any better) — and Trump’s general polices over the past three years, and his stated plans for the next term, point to a future that I can live with. Biden’s ever-changing, evermore far-left fantasy projections that change every time AOC and Bernie talk to him, scare the hell out of me. They’ll never come to fruition, but the attempts to implement them could be disastrous for the country.

    So the coming election is becoming an increasingly easy choice.


    1. I’m with you 100%. Even my extremely apolitical husband is asking when we are going to put up a Trump-Pence sign. My parents who almost cried when Trump won in 2016 are calling to ask how it’s possible that so many people are supporting “crazy Biden.”

      I still can’t believe that I’m going to vote Republican in my first presidential election as a citizen but here we are.


      1. I’m on the same boat. Republicans top to bottom for the first time in my life. I can’t get over how disappointed I’m by the Dems. Even with the schools reopening, the primarily Republican townships in my area are in hybrid while my Democrat-run town decided on fully remote. Meanwhile, nobody died of Corona in 3 months in the whole county.

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        1. I was going to vote Trump/Republican anyway. I’m legit conservative, even if I didn’t vote for Trump last time around. But I appreciate the softening, modulating effect of having an actual opposition party. So I have very mixed feelings going into this election. I hope, for the sake of the whole country, that the Democrats get the trouncing they so richly deserve. But I’m afraid that since they spent the last four years learning absolutely nothing from their previous defeat, that the blowback will be so great it’ll simply wipe out the party. And then Republicans will be running unopposed for… a decade? I don’t think that would be a good thing.

          The glimmer of hope I see in there, is that the destruction of the Democrat party might finally make room for the new political configurations that have been trying to emerge for some time now, but which the major parties had no space for. I mean, there’s no logical reason why support for universal healthcare has to be paired with support for abortion-without-limits. There’s no reason why cultural conservatism should be the enemy of environmental conservation. I would love to see the Democrats reduced to such straits that we see four or five viable small parties emerge from their ruin– some of which can legitimately compete for the mass of voters currently supporting Trump, not because they want to, but because they have no sane alternatives.


          1. I don’t think I will be voting Republican for the rest of my life, I’m more of an emergency Republican. I’m not conservative in my core. I’m pro-choice, and I think universal healthcare is not a bad idea. I took a few years off work to raise my kids and I hated being a housewife, which is what every conservative man will tell you is a height of women’s dreams. I hate the tone of conservative discussions with their mandatory mansplaining and women pretending to be half wits.

            There is a new wave of young Republicans that are liberal in comparison with the traditional ones. Right now the Republican party is united because of the craziness and lies that are coming from the Democratic side. With the next election I think these people might find common ground with the moderate Democrats and put out a centrist candidate. I think you might be onto something that there will a new party. How long though until it gets swallowed by lobbyists and get in bed with unions or big tech, or whatever is the monopoly or big business du jour?


            1. I too am in the same boat — I am very liberal in my social views and do not even object to paying taxes! I have been a Democrat for 20 years, and never thought I’d get to a point in my life where I would even think about voting Republican. But here we are. The current Democratic party has sunk to such depths that I cannot imagine voting for them. A break-up and realignment is the best thing that could happen to that party.

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  3. At home, I’ll explain to my husband why we can’t put up a political sign without fearing for our safety.

    You’re going to take down your state rep sign? Which of the excitable idiots even know who that is?

    Otherwise: your county went for Trump. It wasn’t even close. It also went for Rauner and Romney, so I’m not sure what imaginary dangers you fear. You go into St. Louis to eat out, which if you watch Fox News is in imminent danger of burning down by enraged protesters.

    If your students were going to give you shit, it would be over coronavirus and are you really afraid of that? As the chair of your department? Come on. The ones who would are socially distancing from you anyways.

    You are not physically afraid.


    1. The state rep is a Democrat. There’s no reason to take her sign down.

      If it were just me, I wouldn’t care. But even a minimal risk of an angry crowd showing up at my house is too much because I have a child.


      1. I live in a very working-class neighborhood, in a deeply red region. Here, Trump signs are common. But no sane person would put up a Biden sign. It’d be asking for someone to vandalize your car or leave a flaming bag of poop on your doorstep. I’d like to think my neighbors wouldn’t do that, but realistically….

        About town this morning I saw a Biden sign, and was like “Wow, a Biden sign!” because that’s just not a thing on this side of town. Then I got closer and saw that the sign, while it included the Biden logo, actually read “Vote NO on JOE and the HOE”. So… yeah. That’s my neighborhood. (eye rolling).


      2. You’re worried about being in Rod’s book, aren’t you?

        If your husband isn’t worried, I’m not sure you should be. Unless you’re going to tell me your neighbors have become crazed communists in the last four years. I don’t think angry crowds are the style of your colleagues or your students. You could just start coughing and sneezing and everyone will flee. :-p


        1. I am in Rod’s book. It begins with me, actually. 🙂

          Let’s not pretend we don’t know that marauding stormtroopers are brought into whichever area needs schooling into obedience from elsewhere.


        2. “I don’t think angry crowds are the style…”

          Did you miss the whole Evergreen incident that forced Brett Weinstein and Heather Heying to resign and leave town for the safety of their kids? You don’t think that could happen at other schools?


  4. The whole bruhaha over Trump’s taxes is hilarious. Show me the voters who were OK with Trump up to now, but after being told that he engaged in dodgey tax shenanigans will stand up and say “Alright, this is a step too far!”.

    How big is that demographic, exactly?

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      1. I don’t know anybody who wants to vote for Trump because they admire his personal life or his morals. Although if that’s the yardstick, he clearly raised better kids than Biden.


    1. We are talking about Trump taxes because that will keep our eyes away from Hunter Biden. That’s a real scandal and only few people seem to be enraged.


  5. Clarissa, you’re feeling the effects of hyper-politicization and division not seen in this country for many decades.

    Unfortunately, I don’t see how four more years of Trump can make that better when he has actively been working to create further division and animosity.

    COVID-19 and its effects will go away in a few years, this level of division won’t.


    1. It’s not the division that I mind, to be honest. It’s the creeping totalitarianism. And totalitarianism is absolutely 100% encouraged and imposed by the Democrats.

      So it’s actually the opposite of division that bothers me. It’s the manufactured conformity. Everybody saying and thinking the same because there’s no opportunity to develop a dissident set of ideas.



    My university library has cancelled all fines from January 1st to September 30th, you can return books and reserve them in advance since April 15th, and all books are accessible for students normally since August 23th.


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