Clarissa's Blog

My books are all strangely linked to life and death. The first book was accepted for publication when I was pregnant with Eric. I was supposed to receive an award for it when he would be 6 weeks old.

I wrote the second book when I was pregnant with Klara.

This third book was inspired by the wish to stay connected to my father after he died.

I’m finally holding my book in my hands!

Hard cover, very shiny.

I know I get only about 4 Ukrainian visitors a week but if, by some miraculous chance, you are reading this in Ukraine, I have some promotional copies.

Тиснить на ось цей ґудзик, залишайте своє відділення Нової пошти та все інше, і я вам надішлю примірника безкоштовно:

Нічого від вас не хочу, тільки подарувати книгу.

Come on, people. Just a bit under 2,000 left until 7 million. We can do it!

In the meantime, I’m awaiting the delivery of the author’s copies of my book – which everybody has received before I will – and roasting young turnips with garlic scapes and mushroom-infused soy sauce.

Love doesn’t arise from similarity of education, similarity of background, similarity of experience. Love arises from nothing and creates as it goes. And without it, chaos is indeed come again.

Elizabeth George, Playing for the Ashes

My sister visited the Maasai tribe in Tanzania and was immediately offered marriage. She’s one of those women who can find 5 suitors without trying on a deserted island. But she hasn’t as much as looked at anybody since she met her husband at age 19.

The most touching proposition I received from a stranger was when I was 35 weeks pregnant and huge like a beached whale, and a very polite gentleman at the grocery store offered to be my baby daddy if I already didn’t have one.

Trump will never win New Jersey or New York but he’s still doing rallies in those places. Obviously, he has to hold the rallies there because he’s in court in New York and can’t leave but he’s still showing up. Still finding a way to campaign even when every possibility of actually campaigning has been taken away. I respect that.

I would respect that no matter who did it but if you react to the name “Trump” and can’t hear anything else that’s being said, it’s your problem.

What I like about speaking to Ukrainian audiences is that nobody perceives me as particularly conservative. Here my opinions are far-right and there they are simply normal. I don’t think people even see them as political but more common sense than anything else.

Every time I tell one of my stories about the ideological compliance in North America, people at first look puzzled and then invariably say, “so it’s like in the USSR?” Because yes, it is. Not Stalin’s USSR, of course, but Brezhnev’s and, increasingly, Andropov’s.

“The first thing that neoliberalism does is create a moral and ethical catastrophe on a society-wide level,” said during today’s event the Dean of Liberal Arts of the university that hosted it. I jumped up in my seat because it’s almost literally what I’m saying in the book I’m writing right now. I never hoped to see the day when a Dean would talk about morality like it’s a good thing.

As a result of all these talks in Ukrainian, my Spanish has gone to the absolute dogs. I’m trying to translate my own article from English into Spanish, and the result is so hideous I want to scream. I will now have to restore my language skills by reading huge quantities of Andrés Trapiello whose prose style is inimitable. I’m not going to become as good as he is but at least I hope to stop sounding like my last name is Google Translate.

Today the book tour took me (remotely, of course) to the Ukrainian city of Lutsk. This was the best event of the book tour so far because quite a few people in the audience already read the book, so I didn’t have to give a talk or show slides.

There were some brilliant people there who have read Bauman and Leonidas Donskis, one of Bauman’s favorite interlocutors. Their understanding of neoliberalism’s assault on morality was superb. Finally, somebody brought up neoliberalism during one of my events. Until now, people have been hell-bent on talking about nothing beyond literary criticism.

One of the people in the audience said, “I’m not sure if everybody realizes but our speaker is the daughter of a famous Ukrainian writer who, sadly, died two years ago.” I started bawling and she read some quotes from Ukrainian artists who admired my father. Then I bawled some more. Another person in the audience cried, too, so it wasn’t completely weird.

Then somebody talked about the situation in Kharkiv, and I wept again.

On the positive side, I did remember to wear a different shirt today, and here’s proof:

Klara woke me up at 3 am today because she had a dream that my pet dragon breathed fire on her. It took a while to explain that I’m not planning to get a pet dragon, so I look like I’m 60 as a result.