Pregnancy Symptoms

I’ve experienced all kinds of symptoms in this pregnancy: dizziness, nausea, head-aches, extremely itchy skin, weakness, sleepiness. Everything except loss of appetite because that is something that just never happens to me. Ukrainian people can lose anything except an appetite. (Historic trauma).

The funny thing, though, is that I only had these symptoms whenever I really wanted to have them. I know this sounds weird, but let me explain.

Several years ago, a friend who was then the same age I am now got pregnant. And then, about a month into the pregnancy, the fetus just stopped developing for no reason. She had no idea that had happened until she went to see her doctor. And then she had to get an abortion to remove the expired fetus.

This story traumatized me deeply. The idea of walking around with a dead fetus inside you and not even knowing it was too scary. I also read a similar story on a blog I was following some time later, and the fear of something like that happening to me set in.

As a result, whenever I didn’t have any symptoms for a while, I’d start getting worried that something had happened to the fetus. Then, my body would get the message and would produce some symptoms to calm me down.

It is really interesting how this stuff works.

P.S. Don’t worry, I won’t only write about pregnancy from now on. I will just get all these stories that have accumulated during the first trimester out of my system and then proceed to write about other things.