Returning to the Vomit

I'm close to insanity from the stink of newspapers, and almost cry when I accidentally hear the radio or stumble upon the ugly face of a TV reporter ... It's strange, but deep down I have always been sure that we would definitely return to this vomit. Even in the most encouraging times, I knew that it was a mirage, a deceit, a delusion, and we would fall down with a sob to worship this rotting corpse. What sadness, what boredom! And how eagerly everyone strives for stupefaction, baseness, dumbness. So few of us were spiritually prepared for a worthy life, a life of mind and heart; most didn't have the energy to do so. People were terrified of the smallest whiff of freedom, its faint shadow. Now they have embraced the usual  lies. The ban on meanness and betrayal has been lifted again; again - no moral prohibitions, no responsibility - childish cynicism, pagan innocence, Neanderthal morality.

Russian writer Yuri Nagibin wrote these words in his diary in 1968 when the USSR invaded Czechoslovakia. How scary is it that Nagibin could have been writing this verbatim today?

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  1. Dear Clarissa, thank you for bringing this to your readers’ attention. I am left speechless. Tomorrow I will read it in class to my students.

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    1. To put this in context for other readers, in the early 1960s there was a post -Stalinist relaxation of ideological strictures in the USSR. Its official name was “The Thaw.” GULAG prisoners were released. Stalin’s purges were condemned. Artists were allowed some freedom in creating less ideological art.

      It all came crashing down in 1968 when the USSR invaded Czechoslovakia. It was followed by a massive ideological clampdown within the USSR. Artists like Nagibin were crushed. Such a small whiff of freedom, and over so fast! But the absolute majority of people were happy. Back to captivity, back to foreign conquests, back to domestic terror. What’s not to like?

      And so it goes in circles.

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  2. ŠŠ°ŃˆŠµ ŠæŠ¾ŃŠ¾Š»ŃŒŃŃ‚Š²Š¾ совместно с Георгий Логвинский провело вчера, не ŠæŠ¾Š±Š¾ŃŽŃŃŒ ŃŃ‚Š¾Š³Š¾ слова, ŃŠæŠµŃ†Š¾ŠæŠµŃ€Š°Ń†ŠøŃŽ.
    Š’ Ń‚ŃŠ¶ŠµŠ»ŠµŠ¹ŃˆŠøŃ… ŃƒŃŠ»Š¾Š²ŠøŃŃ… ŠøŠ· общинного центра в Чернигове было ŃŠ²Š°ŠŗŃƒŠøŃ€Š¾Š²Š°Š½Š¾ более 250 человек, среГи них несколько ŠøŠ·Ń€Š°ŠøŠ»ŃŒŃ‚ŃŠ½. ДреГи ŃŠ²Š°ŠŗŃƒŠøŃ€Š¾Š²Š°Š½Š½Ń‹Ń… несколько человек в Ń‚ŃŠ¶ŠµŠ»Š¾Š¼ ŃŠ¾ŃŃ‚Š¾ŃŠ½ŠøŠø, в том числе 8-летний ребёнок с осколочными Ń€Š°Š½ŠµŠ½ŠøŃŠ¼Šø в спине.

    Колонна ŠøŠ· 50 машин взъезжала в гороГ поГ обстрелом. Ее сопровожГали бойцы Š½Š°Ń†ŠøŠ¾Š½Š°Š»ŃŒŠ½Š¾Š¹ полиции Украины Šø ŃŠæŠµŃ†ŠæŠ¾Š“Ń€Š°Š·Š“ŠµŠ»ŠµŠ½ŠøŃ пограничной ŃŠ»ŃƒŠ¶Š±Ń‹. РуковоГил операцией на месте Георгий Логвинский. ŠŠ° ŃŠ²Š°ŠŗŃƒŠ°Ń†ŠøŠ¾Š½Š½Š¾Š¼ транспорте в гороГ привезли Š³ŃƒŠ¼Š°Š½ŠøŃ‚Š°Ń€Š½ŃƒŃŽ ŠæŠ¾Š¼Š¾Ń‰ŃŒ.

    Вместе с Георгием Логвинским Šø его команГой мы проГолжаем ŠæŃ€Š¾Š³Ń€Š°Š¼Š¼Ńƒ ŃŠ²Š°ŠŗŃƒŠ°Ń†ŠøŠø. ŠŸŠ¾Š“Š“ŠµŃ€Š¶Ńƒ нам Š¾ŠŗŠ°Š·Ń‹Š²Š°ŃŽŃ‚ Еврейское Агентство Š”Š¾Ń…Š½ŃƒŃ‚, ŠšŠµŃ€ŠµŠ½ ха-ЕсоГ Šø Š“ŠµŃŃŃ‚ŠŗŠø волонтеров по всей стране.

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  3. A take not seen before:

    “Как раз вчера Š·Š°Š“ŃƒŠ¼Š°Š»ŃŃ о том, что основной глубинной Š“Š²ŠøŠ¶ŃƒŃ‰ŠµŠ¹ силой ŃŃ‚Š¾Š¹ войны как раз Šø ŃŠ²Š»ŃŠµŃ‚ŃŃ ŠæŃ€Š¾Ń‚ŠøŠ²Š¾ŃŃ‚Š¾ŃŠ½ŠøŠµ Š»ŃŽŠ“ŠµŠ¹ физического Ń‚Ń€ŃƒŠ“Š° (ŠæŃ€ŠµŠøŠ¼ŃƒŃ‰ŠµŃŃ‚Š²ŠµŠ½Š½Š¾ телезрителей) Šø Š»ŃŽŠ“ŠµŠ¹, которые Š·Š°Ń€Š°Š±Š°Ń‚Ń‹Š²Š°ŃŽŃ‚ ŃƒŠ¼ŃŃ‚Š²ŠµŠ½Š½Ń‹Š¼ Ń‚Ń€ŃƒŠ“Š¾Š¼. ŠŸŠµŃ€Š²Ń‹Šµ неосознанно ŠæŃ‹Ń‚Š°ŃŽŃ‚ŃŃ Š²ŠµŃ€Š½ŃƒŃ‚ŃŒ ŃŠ²Š¾ŃŽ в послеГнее Š²Ń€ŠµŠ¼Ń быстро ŃŠ¾ŠŗŃ€Š°Ń‰Š°ŃŽŃ‰ŃƒŃŽŃŃ Ń€Š¾Š»ŃŒ в обществе, которое всё меньше Š½ŃƒŠ¶Š“Š°ŠµŃ‚ŃŃ в физическом Šø неквалифицированном Ń‚Ń€ŃƒŠ“Šµ. Война Šø её ŠæŠ¾ŃŠ»ŠµŠ“ŃŃ‚Š²ŠøŃ снова ŃŠ“Š²ŠøŠ½ŃƒŃ‚ ŃŠ¾Ń†ŠøŠ°Š»ŃŒŠ½Ń‹Š¹ баланс в ŠøŃ… пользу. Именно ŠæŠ¾ŃŃ‚Š¾Š¼Ńƒ они не Ń‚Š¾Š»ŃŒŠŗŠ¾ не Š±Š¾ŃŃ‚ся, но Гаже Šø ŠæŃ€ŠøŠ²ŠµŃ‚ŃŃ‚Š²ŃƒŃŽŃ‚ в какой-то мере Šø Ń€Š°Š·Ń€ŃƒŃˆŠµŠ½ŠøŃ Šø Š“ŠµŠ³Ń€Š°Š“Š°Ń†ŠøŃŽ.”

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