The characters in Taffy Brodesser-Ackner’s Long Island Compromise aren’t struggling Japanese-Americans in Portland but very rich East Coast Jews. In spite of these differences, there is a Mika Suzuki-type character in the novel. Jenny Fletcher, a woman with a $3-million-a-year, every year, inherited income, is almost 40, single, jobless, childless, rudderless, and massively depressed because her life has no meaning.
The reason why Mika and Jenny fail to develop lives of their own is identical. They are horrified by the humdrum existences of the regular people around them. For Jenny, even a passing thought that she could have ended up like her childhood friends, with families and careers, is humiliating. To live like everybody else? How degrading! No, both Mika and Jenny believe that they deserve something massively better and spend years upon years waiting for that life of glittering mega importance to find them.
Both women believe that glittering mega importance is conferred on a person by outside circumstances. Mika is certain that if she manages to see Hamilton on Broadway and be invited backstage to meet the cast, she will finally feel like she matters. Jenny Fletcher, on the other hand, has enough money to buy out every seat in the house at a Broadway musical but she knows none of it will help her feel important.
I was thinking about this today because we went to see Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat at the local community theater. I buy tickets for every performance of our local theater group, and it’s always great, although what can possibly beat a score by Andrew Lloyd Webber? But I was thinking that both Mika and Jenny would have been crushed by attending such an event. They would have felt diminished, even though neither achieved the height even of a molehill from which they could be diminished. And it’s just one but deadly mistake that brought them into their listless, depressed existence. They ended up like this because they never figured out that glittering importance comes from the inside. Outside circumstances don’t bathe you in light. Just the opposite, the light from the inside turns humdrum life events into a place of amazing adventure.
Small, tiny, utterly undeveloped, rudimentary personalities dream of surrounding themselves with pomp and circumstance to borrow a bit of somebody else’s importance. Large, interesting personalities feel as interesting at the grocery store as anywhere else.