This is me in 1995:
I’m totally so much prettier now, 30 years later. I’m not even talking about how much happier, more confident, popular, smarter, and just simply blooming I am today. Even physically I looked like a sick monkey back then. Although, obviously I have ailments now and I didn’t back then. At least not of the physical kind.
I feel so much kindness and compassion towards students precisely because they are young. Youth is hard. You can never afford anything, there’s always debt, crappy, crummy jobs, you feel self-conscious, you care about what everybody else thinks, you don’t know if you will end up married or alone (although in this particular photo I clearly didn’t have that problem), childless or with children, friendless or not.
And the really hilarious thing was that back then I thought I was hideously fat. Like for real, dude, youth is such a stupid time.
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I also thought I was fat back in my misspent youth, even though I was not overweight by any standard other than that of Vogue magazine. I had a nice figure and good proportions, but unfortunately I also had a very skinny sister (borderline anorexic) and a very skinny friend who derived boundless pleasure from gloating over the fact that they were thinner than I was. If only I’d had the sense not to care what they thought, life would have been so much easier…
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Wow. You posted a photo from your college days a while back, and this looks like a totally different person.
Youth for sure sucks. All-time low was about age 17, and trajectory has been steadily upward (with a few hiccups) ever since. I am deeply suspicious of people who remenisce about their teens and twenties like that was the “good times”.
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*reminisce
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I did not want that marriage. I knew it wasn’t going to be a forever deal but it was pushed on me.
The only kind of marriage I ever wanted was forever, and it was eating at me that I was trapped in something that wasn’t it.
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You look it, there.
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LOL, yeah I grew four inches and 25 pounds during one summer, went from being a dorky brain to a jock, then back to being considered a brain by the jocks ;-D
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You look like my favorite sister-in-law, when she was young, though she never went in for frills (maybe you didn’t either, but were pushed into them).
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I hated that dress. That whole wedding was a nightmare. I wanted no part of it including the husband.
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Did the father you worship so much just stand by or was he the one who forced you into that marriage? Has he ever attempted to protect you from your mother?
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No, he never stood up to her. They had this folie a deux thing going on.
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Wow! Seeing that picture made my day. I agree with you about youth. It sucks.
Ol.
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