Back to Being Me

I was thrown off-kilter by this layoff thing for three whole weeks. It’s so good to be out of the dumps and feel like me again. An extraordinary relief.

I really really hate being depressed and I’m glad I no longer am. And it’s funny that just before this burden fell off my shoulders I was doing the daily readings where it said,

“Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.”

And I thought, will I have to feel like this for a whole year because I really don’t want to but nevertheless not my will, etc. And then just a few hours later the cup was taken away.

4 thoughts on “Back to Being Me

  1. Wish you peace, hope and resilience. I still find it hard to believe that a scholar of your caliber can be in this situation — sign of the crazy times we live in! As they say, it is the darkest before the dawn…

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    1. Thank you so much! It’s hard to see the university being dismantled. I really believed in the mission of bringing excellent education to kids from modest families and I’m sad that it’s been abandoned.

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      1. “the mission of bringing excellent education to kids from modest families”

        Sympathetic Cliff wants to say how horrible that it’s being abandoned (and it is, I’m completely sincere in that).

        Ironic, jaded Cliff (guess where that’s from) assumes that the mission was to pretend to bring education to kids from modest families and your former chancellor ruined things by actually trying to fulfill it. So they’re doing what they have to in order to return to pretend-mode.

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  2. Seeing as your diving into your bible, here is one more that is appropriate for this.

    Ecclesiastes 3 : 1-8, “To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal, a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to get; and a time to lose; a time to keep; and a time to cast away; A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.”

    As the Word of God states, there is a time for everything, and everything includes feeling depressed, feeling angry, feeling mournful of things lost. But all things has a time and a season. Thankfully the season for such things in your case seems to have been quite short. This is a blessing if you think about it.

    • – W

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