I just discovered that once you’ve been the boss, irrespective of how much you might have hated it, you can’t be anything else.
There is this committee that I love and volunteer for every year. Working on it was always a lot of fun. And then last year I volunteered to chair it. I hated it because I’m a shitty leader of people. So this semester I went back to being a regular member. But the enjoyment is gone. Everything seems disorganized and not the way I would have set it up.
I’ve been corrupted by power and can’t go back to being happy with doing my small share without caring about the result.