Literature Lesson: Mary Lerner’s “Little Selves”

I’m reading the collection titled The Best American Short Strories of the Century and sharing my thoughts about the stories it contains.

Here is the .pdf of the story.

There are short stories that you enjoy because they are great works of art. Or at least passable ones. But there are also stories that communicate valuable information, and Mary Lerner’s “Little Selves” (1916) belongs to that category. It tells us about the death of Margaret O’Brien, a 75-year-old spinster, who realizes that her end is near and embarks on a journey towards death.

Margaret lived her life in a world in which everybody existed until a little over 100 years ago. It is a world where there is no firm boundary between the magical and the real. God is everywhere, spirits are everywhere, leprechauns and fairies are all over the place. People were the closest to the world of the spirits in childhood and then returned to it at death’s door. Death meant something completely different. It wasn’t an unrelieved horror but more of a return to a state of complete enchantment. This kind of a relatiosnhip with death is impossible today, and that’s really sad. Outside of the rapidly shrinking religious circles, we no longer have any narrative whatsoever about the meaning of death. We don’t deal with it at all and pretend it is not there. People who are terminally ill or were recently touched by a relative’s death are avoided. We assign moral value to sickness and death, trying to dupe ourselves into thinking that if we are good enough death won’t come for us.

In the end, we are a lot less happy than Margaret O’Brien whose now outdated and despised worldview gives her a much more dignified and even enjoyable way to die.

7 thoughts on “Literature Lesson: Mary Lerner’s “Little Selves”

  1. Read this story. Beautiful, but so sad. Margaret O’Brien is (a bit more than) twice my age, yet this procession of lost girls felt real, only without Margaret O’Brien’s belief in their continued existence.

    // This kind of a relatiosnhip with death is impossible today, and that’s really sad.

    What is it like in “the rapidly shrinking religious circles” of today?

    Read this post with the poem at its end yesterday. Don’t know if you’ll like it but this story reminded me:

    КакиС сны ΡƒΠ²ΠΈΠ΄ΠΈΠΌ Π² ΠΌΠΈΡ€Π΅ Ρ‚ΠΎΠΌ?
    https://anairos.livejournal.com/190538.html?view=comments#comments

    THE POEM BY ΠΠ°Ρ‚Π°Π»ΡŒΡ Π—Π°Ρ…Π°Ρ€Ρ†Π΅Π²Π°, 2020 Π³.

    Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ сорок с хвостом. Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ β€” “Π±Π΅Π»Ρ‹ΠΉ Π²ΠΎΡ€ΠΎΡ‚Π½ΠΈΡ‡ΠΎΠΊ”. Она ΠΊ Π»Π°Ρ†ΠΊΠ°Π½Π°ΠΌ ΡƒΠ»ΠΈΡ† ΠΏΡ€ΠΈΠΊΠΎΠ»ΠΎΡ‚Π°, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ Π·Π½Π°Ρ‡ΠΎΠΊ. Но Π΄Π΅Π»Π° Ρ…ΠΎΡ€ΠΎΡˆΠΎ, Π² Ρ‚ΠΎ ΠΆΠ΅ врСмя ΠΈ Π½ΠΈ ΠΎ Ρ‡Ρ‘ΠΌ. Π’ лСксиконС всё Ρ‡Π°Ρ‰Π΅ встрСчаСтся слово Β«Ρ‡Ρ‘Ρ€Ρ‚Β».

    Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ Π΄Π΅Π»Π°Π΅Ρ‚ дСньги, ΠΊΠ°Ρ€ΡŒΠ΅Ρ€Ρƒ ΠΈ ΠΌΠ°Π½ΠΈΠΊΡŽΡ€, Π»ΠΈΡ‡Π½ΠΎ Π·Π½Π°Π΅Ρ‚ Π±Π°Ρ€ΠΌΠ΅Π½Π° ΠΈ Ρ…ΠΎΠ΄ΠΈΡ‚ Π½Π° ΠΏΠ΅Ρ€Π΅ΠΊΡƒΡ€. И Π·Π²ΠΎΠ½ΠΈΡ‚ Π½Π° Π±Π΅Π³Ρƒ, ΠΈ ΠΎΠ±Π΅Π΄Π°Π΅Ρ‚ Π½Π° Π±Π΅Π³Ρƒ. Π―Π·Ρ‹Ρ‡ΠΎΠΊ Ρƒ Π½Π΅Ρ‘ ядовитый, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ ΠΊΠ°Ρ€Π°ΠΊΡƒΡ€Ρ‚.

    НСт Π΄Ρ€ΡƒΠ·Π΅ΠΉ Ρƒ Π½Π΅Ρ‘, Π½ΠΎ, ΠΏΠΎ ΡΡ‡Π°ΡΡ‚ΡŒΡŽ, ΠΈ Π½Π΅Ρ‚ Π²Ρ€Π°Π³ΠΎΠ². Она Π΄Π²Π΅Ρ€ΡŒ Π² ΠΊΠ°Π±ΠΈΠ½Π΅Ρ‚ ΠΎΡ‚ΠΊΡ€Ρ‹Π²Π°Π΅Ρ‚ Π»Π΅Π³ΠΊΠΎ, Π½ΠΎΠ³ΠΎΠΉ, Π½ΠΎ ΡƒΠ²ΠΎΠ»ΠΈΡ‚ΡŒΡΡ Ρ…ΠΎΡ‡Π΅Ρ‚ с Ρ€Π°Π±ΠΎΡ‚Ρ‹ ΠΊΠΎΡ‚ΠΎΡ€Ρ‹ΠΉ Π³ΠΎΠ΄, ΠΏΠΎΡ‚ΠΎΠΌΡƒ Ρ‡Ρ‚ΠΎ Π½ΠΎΡ‡Π°ΠΌΠΈ Π΅ΠΉ снится ΠΎΠ΄ΠΈΠ½ Ρ„ΡƒΡ€Π³ΠΎΠ½.

    ДСрСвянный Ρ„ΡƒΡ€Π³ΠΎΠ½ с толстой масляной полосой. На ΠΎΠΊΠ½Π΅ занавСски висят, Π½Π° Π³Π²ΠΎΠ·Π΄Π΅ β€” лассо. И ΠΊΠΎΠ³Π΄Π° просыпаСтся Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ Π² ноль-ноль часов, Π½Π° Π·ΡƒΠ±Π°Ρ… ΠΏΠΎΡ‡Π΅ΠΌΡƒ-Ρ‚ΠΎ ΠΏΡ€ΠΎΡ‚ΠΈΠ²Π½ΠΎ скрипит пСсок.

    Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ тянСт Ρ‡Π΅Ρ€Π½ΠΈΠ»ΡŒΠ½ΡƒΡŽ Ρ‚Π΅Π½ΡŒ, Ρ‚Π΅Π½ΡŒ Π±Π΅Ρ€Π΅Ρ‚ стакан. Β«ΠŸΡ€ΠΈΠ»Π΅Ρ‚ΠΈ, ΡƒΡ€Π°Π³Π°Π½, Π·Π°Π±Π΅Ρ€ΠΈ мСня, ΡƒΡ€Π°Π³Π°Π½, Ρ‚ΠΎΠ»ΡŒΠΊΠΎ Ρ‡Ρ‚ΠΎΠ±Ρ‹ ΡƒΠΆΠ΅ Π±Π΅Π· Π²ΠΎΠ·Π²Ρ€Π°Ρ‚Π°, навСрняка, Ρ‡Ρ‚ΠΎΠ±Ρ‹ Π΄Π²Π΅Ρ€ΡŒ Π² Π±Π΅Π·Ρ‹ΡΡ…ΠΎΠ΄Π½ΠΎΡΡ‚ΡŒ Π·Π°Ρ…Π»ΠΎΠΏΠ½ΡƒΠ»Π°ΡΡŒ Π΄ΠΎ Ρ‰Π΅Π»Ρ‡ΠΊΠ°,

    ΠΈ Ρ‡Ρ‚ΠΎΠ± (ΠΊΡ‚ΠΎ Ρ‚Π°ΠΌ Π·Π° Π³Π»Π°Π²Π½ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ?) ΠΊΠΈΠ½ΡƒΠ» Π² Π²ΠΎΡ€ΠΎΠ½ΠΊΡƒ ΠΊΠ»ΡŽΡ‡.

    Если скаТСшь ΠΌΠ½Π΅ ΠΆΠ΄Π°Ρ‚ΡŒ Π΄ΠΎ июля, я ΠΏΠΎΡ‚Π΅Ρ€ΠΏΠ»ΡŽ. Π―, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ глупая ΠΏΡ‚ΠΈΡ†Π°, ΡΡƒΡŽ, Π³Π΄Π΅ Π½Π΅ Π½Π°Π΄ΠΎ, клюв». И ΠΏΡ€ΠΈΡ…ΠΎΠ΄ΠΈΡ‚ Π·Π° Π½Π΅ΠΉ ΡƒΡ€Π°Π³Π°Π½, бСсноват, ΠΊΠΎΠ»ΡŽΡ‡,

    ΠΈ ΠΏΠΈΡ‰ΠΈΡ‚ Ρ‚Π΅Π»Π΅Ρ„ΠΎΠ½, ΠΏΡ€ΠΎΠ²Π°Π»ΠΈΠ²ΡˆΠΈΡΡŒ случайно Π² Ρ‰Π΅Π»ΡŒ, Ρ‡Ρ‚ΠΎ нСльзя Π²Ρ‹Ρ…ΠΎΠ΄ΠΈΡ‚ΡŒ ΠΈΠ· Π΄ΠΎΠΌΠΎΠ² Π½ΠΈΠΊΠΎΠΌΡƒ Π²ΠΎΠΎΠ±Ρ‰Π΅, Ρ‡Ρ‚ΠΎ стоит мСгаполис, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ Π² сСром Ρ…ΡƒΠ΄ΠΎΠΌ ΠΏΠ»Π°Ρ‰Π΅, Π½Ρƒ ΠΈ ΠΌΠ½ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ Π΅Ρ‰Ρ‘ ΠΎΡ‡Π΅Π½ΡŒ ΡΡ‚Ρ€Π°ΡˆΠ½Ρ‹Ρ… для всСх Π²Π΅Ρ‰Π΅ΠΉ.

    Волько Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ ΠΈΠ΄Ρ‘Ρ‚, Ρ‚ΠΈΡ…ΠΈΠΌ свСтом своим ΡΠΎΡ‡Π°ΡΡŒ, ΠΎΠΆΠΈΠ΄Π°Π½ΠΈΠ΅ΠΌ Ρ‡ΡƒΠ΄Π° горящая, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ свСча. И Π²ΠΎΡ‚ с этой ΠΌΠΈΠ½ΡƒΡ‚Ρ‹ Ρ€Π°Π·Π²Π΅Π΅Ρ‚ Π΅Ρ‘ ΠΏΠ΅Ρ‡Π°Π»ΡŒ Ρ‚Π° Π΄ΠΎΡ€ΠΎΠ³Π° ΠΈΠ· ΠΆΡ‘Π»Ρ‚ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ-ΠΆΡ‘Π»Ρ‚ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ ΠΊΠΈΡ€ΠΏΠΈΡ‡Π°.

    ΠŸΡ€ΠΎΡΡ‹ΠΏΠ°Π΅Ρ‚ΡΡ Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ. Над ΡƒΡ…ΠΎΠΌ Π·Π²Π΅Π½ΠΈΡ‚ ΠΊΠΎΠΌΠ°Ρ€. Π“ΠΎΠ²ΠΎΡ€ΠΈΡ‚ ΠΌΠ°ΠΌΠ΅ Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ: «МнС снился Ρ‚Π°ΠΊΠΎΠΉ ΠΊΠΎΡˆΠΌΠ°Ρ€. Π’Ρ€ΠΎΠ΄Π΅ я, Π½ΠΎ Π½Π΅ я, ΠΈ Π±Ρ‹Π»Π° я сСбС Ρ‚ΡŽΡ€ΡŒΠΌΠ°, Ρ‡Π΅Π»ΠΎΠ²Π΅ΠΊ-Π°Π²Ρ‚ΠΎΠΌΠ°Ρ‚ ΠΈΠ»ΠΈ ядСрная Π·ΠΈΠΌΠ°Β».

    Π‘Π²Π΅Ρ‚ΠΈΡ‚ солнцС, ΠΈ маслом ΠΏΠ»ΡŽΡ‘Ρ‚ΡΡ сковорода. «РасскаТи сон Π²ΠΎΠ΄Π΅, ΠΈ Π΅Π³ΠΎ унСсёт Π²ΠΎΠ΄Π°. НС Π±Ρ‹Π²Π°ΡŽΡ‚ Ρ‚Π°ΠΊΠΈΠΌΠΈ уТасными Π³ΠΎΡ€ΠΎΠ΄Π°, Π΄Π°ΠΆΠ΅ Ссли Π±Ρ‹Π²Π°ΡŽΡ‚ β€” ΠΎΡ‚ΡΡŽΠ΄Π° ΠΈΡ… Π½Π΅ Π²ΠΈΠ΄Π°Ρ‚ΡŒ.

    Π—Π΄Π΅ΡΡŒ Ρ‚Ρ€ΠΎΠΏΠΈΠ½ΠΊΠ° ΠΈΠ·ΠΎΠ³Π½ΡƒΡ‚Π° ΠΌΠ°ΠΊΠΎΠ²Ρ‹ΠΌ ΠΊΠ°Π»Π°Ρ‡ΠΎΠΌ, здСсь, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ Π±Π°Π±ΠΎΡ‡ΠΊΠ°, Π»Π΅Ρ‚ΠΎ ΠΏΠΎΠΏΠ°ΡΡ‚ΡŒ Π½ΠΎΡ€ΠΎΠ²ΠΈΡ‚ Π² сачок. Π—Π΄Π΅ΡΡŒ Π½Π° ΡΡ‡Π°ΡΡ‚ΡŒΠ΅ ΠΈ взрослый, ΠΈ малСнький ΠΎΠ±Ρ€Π΅Ρ‡Ρ‘Π½. НичСго Π½Π΅ ΡΡ‚Ρ€Π°ΡˆΠΈΡΡŒ, Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ-Π±Π΅Π»Ρ‹ΠΉ-Π²ΠΎΡ€ΠΎΡ‚Π½ΠΈΡ‡ΠΎΠΊ,

    ΠΏΠΎΡ‚ΠΎΠΌΡƒ Ρ‡Ρ‚ΠΎ, Π½Ρƒ Ссли, Π° Π²Π΄Ρ€ΡƒΠ³ это сон-Π²Π΅Ρ‰ΡƒΠ½, Ρ‚ΠΎ тСбя Π² ΡΡ‚Ρ€Π°ΡˆΠ½Ρ‹ΠΉ сон я ΠΎΠ±Ρ€Π°Ρ‚Π½ΠΎ Π½Π΅ ΠΎΡ‚ΠΏΡƒΡ‰ΡƒΒ».

    И Ρ‚ΠΎΠ³Π΄Π° запираСтся Π­Π»Π»ΠΈ ΠΎΠ΄Π½Π° Π² сарай, Π±Π°ΡˆΠΌΠ°Ρ‡ΠΊΠΈ Π½Π°Π΄Π΅Π²Π°Π΅Ρ‚, стираСт с Π»ΠΈΡ†Π° Ρ„Π΅Π²Ρ€Π°Π»ΡŒ.

    И ΠΏΠΎ Π½Π΅Π±Ρƒ Π±Π΅ΠΆΠΈΡ‚ Π΅Ρ‘ Тёлтая ΠΌΠ°Π³ΠΈΡΡ‚Ρ€Π°Π»ΡŒ, ΠΈ Π½Π° Π½Π΅Π±Π΅ Π³ΠΎΡ€ΠΈΡ‚ изумрудная ΠΏΠ°ΡΡ‚ΠΎΡ€Π°Π»ΡŒ.

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    1. Very good poem, thank you!

      Religious people dedicate a large part of their life to prepare for death. Their own and that of others. The goal is to end one’s life like Margaret O’Brien.

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  2. Want to share one of my favorite stories. “Young Man Axelbrod” (1917) by Sinclair Lewis is not famous, yet it is the only one I read which deals with the subject of the purpose of (university) education. Cannot succeed to describe it well. The best summary is “A former immigrant and a current retired farmer goes to Yale in the attempt to realise a dream and reach for higher levels of existence.”

    Full text is here:

    https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Young_Man_Axelbrod

    If you read, would love to hear your impression.

    Btw, are those stories from the following book or from another collection? Would you recommend it?

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    1. Thanks for recommending the Lewis story. Have you read “Stoner” by John Williams? It is also very much about the purpose of higher education, the humanities in particular.

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    2. Read the Sinclair Lewis story. What a wonderful story. Thank you for recommending it! It really hits home for me because I went to Yale for the same purpose as Axelbrod, didn’t find it and got very depressed until I realized that you can’t find it in a place.

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  3. I love these discussions of literature, including reading recommendations in the comments. Based on one of your recent posts, I started reading “The Interpreter of Maladies” and fell in love with its final story “The Third and Final Continent.” Thank you!

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