Nobody asked this but I still want to ponder if going conservative was worth it.
I’m still in academia, and it’s very lonely. Whenever I’m in a room with people, they are together and I’m separate. They don’t know it, for the most part, but I do. I miss talking to colleagues. I miss having friends at work. I miss going to lunch or for coffee. But I can’t because we are not equal. They can say anything they want and I can’t. We have a “bias response team” that considers my beliefs bias but the opposing ones virtue.
On the positive side, I had the best time of anybody I know during COVID. I was unafraid and free. I can explore my curiosities without having to bring them into alliance with any sort of a party line.
Most importantly, I’m not confused like everybody else I know in academia. Like the professor of mathematics who is publicly yelled at and branded as a racist because most of the students who fail Calc I are black. Like the professor of Gender Studies whose organization removed the word “woman” from every communication. Like a friend from Romania who was booed by the students in his own classroom when he started answering a question about his experiences behind the Iron Curtain. Like a gay colleague who after a few drinks at a bar said, “I’m gay, I like dick” and is now shunned as a transphobe. Like a Jewish friend whose students organized a mass walk-out during her class on the Holocaust. These people are all so left-wing, it’s almost comical. And they don’t understand what they did wrong. My exclusion is voluntary and a result of a consciously made set of decisions. I don’t feel lost and betrayed. I left the group first and wasn’t kicked out against my will. And that’s a net positive.