Have you read Darren Wilson’s testimony? The members of that grand jury have zero self – respect if they allowed this load of steamy shit to be poured into their ears.
But notice an interesting thing: a grown man in a very macho profession has no problem whatsoever with publicly self – infantilizing to an extraordinary degree. Wilson offers a spectacle of regression to a childhood stage, hoping that the five – year – old persona he is adopting will help him avoid responsibility for his adult actions.
And the really sad part is that it works. Nobody seems repelled by the picture of an adult man in a very responsible position who starts to speak in a baby voice, sharing his childish fantasies about TV characters, the moment he is asked to account for his actions.
If Wilson can perform this kind of a regression so easily in front of a bunch of strangers in an official setting, chances are, this was far from being the first time. Putting on a spectacle of being a lost and wronged little baby seems like a well – honed skill of Wilson’s. What’s curious is that working as a policeman did not get in the way of him developing this skill. This means that everyone around him must have reacted as if slipping into a childish persona is a normal thing for an adult man to do. And given that nobody is picking up on the deep pathology of his testimony, I’m not surprised.
The burden of adulthood and responsibility is too heavy for many people to carry. This is why they so easily identify with somebody who puts on a show of being a child trapped in an adult’s body. They experience no compassion whatsoever towards actual children. To the contrary, children provoke resentment because of their legitimate lack of adult responsibilities. Observing Wilson on the stand and reading his testimony allows such people to experience a cathartic feeling of symbolically killing an actual child in order to stand in the child’s place and declare their right to continue being children.
The grand jury’s refusal to hold Wilson accountable for his actions – as we know, the jury literally removed the need for Wilson to give public account of what he did – is an official endorsement of immaturity and irresponsibility as an acceptable way of life for an adult. The right of overgrown babies to remain babies for as long as they shall live is deemed even more important than somebody else’s right to keep living.
The time has come for us to ask ourselves: where does this road lead us all? What is each of us ready to sacrifice to allow the perennially infantile to keep sucking on the tit of our society because they refuse to learn to seek adult nourishment and work for it?
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